I read my card earlier, and... well, apparently now is an auspicious time for business ventures.

I happen to be starting up a cafe press store... Maybe this is the business venture the cards spoke to me about. I'm terribly excited.

Especially since the person I'm doing this with...

Just gave me the most amazing picture to work with.

Pretty soon, I'll be selling t-shirts. So keep an eye out. The first is going to definitely be a phoenix. Interested? Keep an eye out, or hit me up to talk.

I don't want to tackle this messy house yet... I went to bed last night, and it was decent... How in the world does it mess up while I'm sleeping? *Sigh* I have to do the dishes, too. Bleh.

Oh well. Time to get to pulling my sleeves up. I hate cleaning, but... It's gotta be done. What's new with you peoples? Hit me up.

Love, peace, and chicken grease,
SilverSageWolf

As always, I feel like I'm on the outside looking in... I can press my nose on the glass, knock as loudly as I can... But life goes on, whether or not I'm there. I don't make a deep enough impact. I'm like a tiny dent in a mechanic's rusty  old hooptie. I'll be the last to get some attention, if ever. And though I'm surrounded by a sea of faces I know, I feel like I'm drowning.

Damnit, I don't wanna drown anymore. I want to have the confidence to raise my son. I'm tired of having no energy... What's the point? I get up, I watch my son, argue with my husband, watch my kid some more... And stay on the computer, where even my own sister rarely speaks to me on myspace.

Everyone's got their own thing, I understand... But I have not heard from my mother in weeks. And she keeps changing her number. Or some such thing. I rarely get to leave the house... Even rarer to not have to tote a toddler around, wanting to explore all the shiny things he can touch...

And I have not been able to do anything on my own... for years. and years. I keep slipping under in my little sea of faces, and I wonder... Is it even worth fighting anymore? Should I give up?

I've been invisible this long. Why not just stop trying to be seen?

I seem to have some morbid Fascination with mosquitos. Especially in the larval stage, when they just whip around in the water... Life goes on, life goes on... And nobody else seems to take notice. It's a terribly precarious balance... It's getting colder, and I found one of my little babies was just... floating in the water, unmoving... I think it's dead. I still have two, though. They're lively as ever! I can't bring myself to dumping the bucket out. They're so cute, the way they swin around, whipping their little bodies into alternating little 8's and circles. I can't wait to see them emerge, going on to the next stage of life! I guess I'll update on my little skeeter kids pretty soon. They're a little bigger than last night.

So I had an amazing day.

Hubby went to a friend's to do music stuff, Jesse was at his auntie's... Then my little baby and my niece came... He was a little whiny at first... But livened right up! Hubby and I made beef stroganoff, fed the little ones, and we had a real fun bathtime, complete with all the splashings and buckets as hats. Haha. Blew up the air mattress, and cuddled up with niece and baby... Got them to sleep without little incident. All in all.... A very relaxed sort of day.

Blessed be and happy Mabon,
SilverSageWolf